Holidays

So I've made it through the "holidays" without him. Standing around watching other couples kiss on New Year's Eve was really, really hard. I can remember him and I would start looking for each other around 11:45 pm to make sure we were the first person we kissed and hugged at midnight. And one of his "traditions" was to eat pickled Herring at 12:05am. MAN!! That is the nastiest tasting stuff in the whole world but he insisted it brought us good fortune for the new year so I ate it, year after year after year. Well, this year I didn't eat any so we will see what happens, if I have a terrible year (can't imagine it being any worse than the one I just went through) I will start eating that crap every year!! My heart breaks every time I think of him, every time I look at a picture, every time someone says remember when.... will I ever be "normal" again!! vicki lee