30 days

So yesterday was the 30 day mark.... he's been gone for one whole month, it feels like yesterday and I keep waiting for him to call me or come in the front door. I thank heaven for my friends, I thought they would have all slowly dropped off of the contact wagon by now but there are some that are still there. I've gone through my "first" Thanksgiving without him, my "first" anniversary without him and now I will be going through my "first" Christmas and New Year. I can remember a time when I used to look forward to my "firsts".... now I dread them.