Not gonna stop

This morning he had an appointment with his oncologist, the cancer has spread to his collar bone on the left side and it is fractured, doctor said he could have done it simply by turning over in bed. They will start radiation on that area as early as tomorrow to alleviate the pain and stop the spread of the disease. We were supposed to see the radiation oncologist this morning as well but she is always late and I couldn't wait any longer so he will most likely see her tomorrow. He started his IV chemo again this morning and will have those treatments every other week. When we got home and while I was fixing his breakfast I asked if he'd heard what the doctor had said about how he broke his collar bone, "No, what exactly did he say?". You could have broken it simply by turning over in bed.... "This isn't going to stop is it?", no babe it isn't. I want him to continue to fight because the thought of losing him makes me want to throw up, but it must be hell on him, constant pain, tests, doctors, radiation, chemo, exhaustion, lack of appetite, depression the list goes on and on..... vicki lee