This used to be about trying to live without someone who was battling cancer, now it's about learning to live a new life. Learning to deal with the enormous amount of guilt you feel when you finally realize if you don't move on you are going to slide into a very dark place....
About Me
- Vicki Lee
- St. Charles, Missouri, United States
- With all the technology we have in this world why is it so hard to find a cure for cancer?
Showing posts with label Early morning. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Early morning. Show all posts
Thursday, July 22, 2010
"Vic... Vic", is someone talking to me, I'm sleeping go away. "Vic...Vic", I realize it's him standing over me at the side of the bed. I shoot straight up out of a sound sleep, "What's the matter, are you okay, did you fall, what's going on?" I can't get the questions out fast enough, standing up now, reaching for my shirt, going through the 911 call I'm going to make. "It's 7 o'clock you're going to be late for work", it can't be 7am it's still dark outside. Looking at the clock it's 3:45am, "It's okay honey, I have time, it's only 3:45, see look at the clock." "Are you sure, because the clock in the living room says 7." After much reassurance and discussion I finally convince him that it is still the wee hours of the morning and I crawl back in bed hoping to be able to slip back into a bit of a nap. This is a recurring scenario for us right now, he is more and more confused and I am more and more frightened for him and myself. God please don't let his mind go, you can have everything I have, my health, my mind, my home anything just please don't take his mind..... bargaining with God never works but it does make one feel a little more hopeful! Vicki Lee
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